Walk Beside Me

I got my offer from NLP center in Puchong and one of the famous hospitals in Penang. Still in a dilemma of choosing the workplace. Where should I go? The cost of freedom is always high, but Americans have always paid it. And one path we shall never choose, and that is the path of surrender, or submission. John F. Kennedy

Elegance is something more than ease  - more freedom from awkwardness and restraint. It implies a precision, a polish and a sparkling which is spirited, yet delicate -  Hazlitt Be an elegant one, be a smart but humble one. People always think that I am funny and joke a lot, well just enjoy our life when we have the chance to do so.   I miss home recently, wasn't able to go back for few months. This weekend is crunch week with lots of deadlines but I will do the hard work now and try to relax later on. This is mid sem stress fest.  Accidentally bumped into a long lost friend in MIDVALLEY,KL few weeks ago. My mind went blank when somebody hugged me hahaha. It has been 6 years we did not meet with each other since she moves to Kl. Still sweet, still pretty.  Sometimes, I do admire people with good command of English. Mingling with people who do not know to speak in Mandarin was a huge obstacle for me last time. Who knows they become my best friend...

So here am I again. Time flies. Sorry for not updating my blog. I am going to leave uni very, very soon. Had an audition for vjsearch last week and it was my best day ever. Getting anxious, pretending to be calm and I had done my best. Wasn't put high hope on it but I was truly satisfied with my first step. Dear my boyfriend, you are my ideal man in my life. You are romantic and I always romance you from time to time too, to keep the passion alive in a long-term relationship. I never buy present for you on your birthday or valentine day, just because you don't like it and you just want me to be with you. Thanks God for that, I love the way you act and think. They said love is the best antidepressant and hell yeah, I am going to agree on that. We have gone through up and down, it is almost 3 years now. I do not believe in love at first and same goes to you. Well, we have made it through this far and i believe that we will make it through. ********************************...

不小心看到了一个人的文章，心里冷了一半。 原来他们分了好长的一段时间，我还真的不晓得。爱情，本来就没有对与错。曾经有人问我说：“你相信爱情吗？” 爱情和天长地久，对我来说都不能划上平行线。我相信爱情，也曾经期望天长地久那样童话般的故事。只是现在的我，学会珍惜当下。我们始终都比不过像陶敏敏那样的女生，但是最后都会找到属于我们的徐太宇。这是我看最近当红的电影所作出的结论，哈哈。 这几年来我的日子除了忙就是忙，虽然有时候都不知道自己忙了些什么，压力些什么。 考试加上渴望离开的那颗心，让我一直在追求平衡点。对了，好久没有更新了。然后今年我已经二十三岁，往成熟女路线走去了。 这里的心情总是有点纠结，找不到思想一样的朋友。朋友们的是是非非，言语上的幼稚总是让我觉得和他们格格不入。也许读的是心理学，我的心情起伏开始没有像以往那样了。 心静如水，只是偶尔听到熟悉的声音还会有些激动，还会想念他们。朋友，始终是我的最爱。 昨天AH PANG打给我，就像以往一样，我们聊了一个小时多。他说啊，你的笑声还是那么经典，哈哈哈。 谢谢你朋友，我很爱你。你把我逗得太开心了。 找到女朋友时，记得一定要告诉我。 我知道她会是最幸运的哪一位！ 最甜蜜的是你竟然对我说，明年去australia找你，你会请我吃遍美食！ 谢谢你！  啊，下雨了。晚安。 

在很努力的安排我的时间，学舞，健身，学业，打工，谈恋爱，哈哈哈。。　坚持再坚持，一定会好好的！

这个月的你， 你好像憔悴了许多，功课太多了，应酬太多了。黑眼圈来了，脸上的豆豆还在。你应该就快经历完青春期了吧？豆豆请你快点消失，好吗？ 这个月的你， 看清了一个朋友。人生中还真的会遇到双面人。虽然故事不是发生在你的身上，可是知道太多事有时不见得是件好事。你好累好累，累得一直拒绝别人的要邀约。他开始说你给他的时间不多。亲爱的朋友，你有女朋友了，不可以一直在夜里和我一起喝茶或谈天，你的女朋友就独自在家。不可以太依赖我，你懂吗？ 这个月的你， 男朋友越变越帅，好得你不能再挑剔。你说你不喜欢，他就尽量改。这样的他，让我太幸福了。而你，也尽量再改变自己， 越变越好，让他无法挑剔，哈哈。这是好事，非常好的事。你去健身了，你开始听非主流的歌，爱上了这些歌。然后，在这里才发现身边的朋友都在听这样的歌。 这个月的你， 你开心吗？希望你是开心的。虽然有好多东西让你疑惑，虽然你面对很多难题，虽然有时还是会和男友意见不合，虽然你还是不怎么能分配好时间给朋友，可是你在努力，是吗？加油吧你！独立是好的，坚强是好的。

                                                                                                          他说，can you just do squat since you have a big ass?  然后， 也不知道什么时候开始，身边的男性朋友都叫我 DO SQUAT. " hey chloe, you have a nice ass, just make it rounder and sexier !" " hey chloe, go gym with your boy friend then. " " hey chloe, here are the nice videos for you to do workout. "  最近认识的朋友都爱做运动，然后我最喜欢的两个男人都爱往健身房跑。 说了一大堆的diet plan， 身材比例越来越好。都怪我遇到太多爱健身的朋友，现在也开始来健身了。太多的压力，大多的事情，让我不得不依靠运动来发泄。当我越压力，我就运动得越多。这里可以信任的人只有三个，　二个男人和一个女孩。成熟的男人和单纯的女孩，很奇怪的组合，就这样成为了我在这里最信任的朋友，哈哈。 不懂如何述说最近的生活，除了忙，还是忙。