Walk Beside Me

一盏床头灯再配上oliva ong 的歌曲，忽然感觉没有那么的压力了。 实习时一直出入健身房，身材挺好的。可是最近被医生禁止了，是我的腰部受伤了，需要一段时间来就医。肚腩好像越来越大，超怕有天就要大过我的胸部了。 最近戒掉了三合一咖啡，我可是用了好多好多的意志力来戒掉这不良的爱好。嗯，感觉挺好的。教练说喝多了三合一的饮料，肚腩会越来越大。 人生所遭遇的壞事不一定都得急著丟掉，留在心裡沈澱著也好，有時它會給你些警惕，而你將不再只停留在那舒適區。 嗯，这叙述着现在的我。 * Sorry bro, causing so many problems for you . * * hahaha, i wouldn't want you to miss anything of my wedding * 终于，在你的婚礼上成了你老婆的姐妹们。离别前，你把我抱得很紧，说了i will miss you chloe. 没有任何的爱慕和暧昧在其中，只是一段很纯很纯的友谊。眼泪在打转，谢谢你成为了我的好哥儿。 祝你幸福。

许多人所谓的成熟，不过是被习俗磨去了棱角，变得世故而实际了。 那不是成熟，而是精神的早衰和个性的消亡。 真正的成熟，应当是独特个性的形成，真实自我的发现， 精神上的结果和丰收。  从这个角度来看，成熟是另一种形式的幼稚与天真。 所谓的大人模样，是个人适应社会需求的产物。 真正成熟的人，不会轻易把心里的那个小孩丢掉。 我们都是扮演大人的玩偶，把玩偶服脱掉，里面是否依旧是当年那个肉嘟嘟的孩子。

回到了这里，心里还真他妈的感慨。稍微看回了以前的文章，惊讶的是以前的我还蛮感性。 那天你来找我，等了我两个小时吧？ 四年不见的我们，得确让我有点紧张。那天晚上，你还是一如往常的滔滔不绝，而我还是像当初一样的当了你的聆听者。不同的是，感觉。是我变了，当初的爱慕者变成了现在的朋友。谢谢你amos, 离别后的信息确实很温暖。如果当初我们真的在一起，或许就不会有现在的我了。 常常爱和男友开玩笑的说，我不完美但我很美。哈哈！ 很臭美，对吧？ 而他，总是听后说了：“你很自恋啊”。 然而后来会说：“你很完美也很美。” 身为一个女友，这应该是很崇高的赞美了。我脸上有痘痘也有疤痕，我没有很好的身材也没有一头乌黑亮丽的秀发。不过老实说，追我的人得确不少哈哈哈。想想，应该是自信的女人会比较漂亮吧？妈妈常说，只要你的个性好，你开朗，笑多点，人缘自然会好。也许，我是一直秉持着这个原则走下去的。 前几天参加了好友的求婚party，他是一个非常有个性到别人讨厌的男生。但，我就很喜欢。 也许因为我们太投缘，这个友谊就维持到了现在。要好好幸福的走下去，知道吗？离别前，还亲手做给我这个。谢谢你，亲爱的哥哥。

Lovely and beautiful song :) 

不知道如何来回应你四年里对我的喜欢。你的一切一切，都感觉很美好。如果那时候你也像现在那样的成熟了，或许我们早就在一起了。如果如果。。有很多的如果，我不敢想象。 你的喜欢，我心领了。男朋友对我很好，非常有耐心。

你会不会忽然的出现，在街角的咖啡店，我会带着笑脸，和你寒暄，不去说从前，只是寒暄，对你说一句，只是说一句，好久不见…我一直都在幻想这样的情景。咖啡，总能让我联想好多。如果用爱情来比喻，那 爱情不像喝啤酒，有一大桌人， 爱情 应该像喝咖啡，一个人在角落安静地品尝。我喜欢咖啡，喜欢它的香味，喜欢咖啡的苦与甜，喜欢它在适当的时候给予我不同的感觉。咖啡对于我，就是有如此的魔力。

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